Have you noticed any change in the depression since you cut out or cut back alcohol
@Birdyman88 ?
Simple answer is yes. But many things factor in and I had to manage all of them for it to work. I hope it makes sense why I didn't quit drinking completely. These are in a general order of importance. So, my goods days are done for the year and my bad days are just now arriving, so I will need to watch the alcohol more closely.
* Working outside, getting out - I have seasonal affective disorder and it gets nasty. I'll take 105, sunny, with Cloggers, over 55 and overcast any day. Even rainy summer days can be unenjoyable. My normal body temp is 97.3. Who knows.
* Excercise - the more strenous, the better. I had to quit smoking though.
* Challenges - I need them. I operate best with fast, risky, complicated.
* Complicated people, superficial values, egomaniacs, narcissists, bullshit, etc. I do my best to avoid them. I blame them for putting the survival of the human race at risk. Anger leads to depression.
* Crowds, chaotic environments. I avoid them, unless it's something like an 80s heavy metal concert. I tend to have a lot in common with the latter crowd and find them enjoyable to be around.
* etc, etc
* Weed - avoid it, exaggerated/elongated regret cycle from being completely unproductive at just about everything.
* etc, etc
* Finances - not a major concern unless I can't pay bills, but I always put bills before addiction, or at least equal, but Im way past those days.
* Alcohol. I tend to crave it nowadays when I'm happy, NOT when I'm unhappy. When combined with above factors, result may not be good. Without the above factors, not so bad. I learned to avoid closely spaced cycles with inadequate recovery period...
@Jonny, there's your answer, LOL. Otherwise, it's simply happy, really happy, complete bliss, can't remember, sleep, hungover, depressed, recover, normal again. I just pay attention to above factors or it can go south pretty quick. And I usually stay away from everyone and the computer the following day when the depression hits.
Sorry to be long-winded, but this was my actual reality and why it took so long to sort it all out.
