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Admitting you need help is the first step in recovering. I’ve been an addict for 15+ years. Clean for about six, but I’ve been struggling lately. I don’t want to fall back in to what I used to do, and so tonight I am going to reach out to my counselor to ask to meet again. It’s been some months since I’ve seen her, and it will hurt my pride to make that call, but if I don’t I may fall back into my old ways, and that will hurt far worse. I don’t want to see that happen, so I will make a call tonight. I would encourage you to do so also.

I recommend reaching out to America’s Keswick. They have a great program, and they’re only a couple hours away from you, in north New Jersey. One of my best friends went through their program and has been clean for more than 20 years now. Check it out, and consider it. https://addictionrecovery.org/colonyofmercy/

The cost is minimal, and I’ll pay the application fee if you want to go, if you give me your word you will go once you apply.
 
climbingmonkey24 said:
On the contrary, I’m fighting with everything I have in me. I guess maybe I’m just feel alone while at it, hence what every couple months I make these incoherent posts
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Hey no one EVER said it would be easy!

We are all alone, in the truest sense. We are all stuck in our own heads, with our own filters of reality. Try to find peace in that. My truth is very different from yours. If possible take as many psychology classes as you can, got 5 or 6 under my belt. I have no intention of helping others, but it sure opened my eyes to know how much we are in our own heads.

I personally struggle with alexithymia, ASD, dyslexia, adhd..

Look into it for yourself. Psychology is entirely fucked, built on a bullshit foundation, and has some current good changes going on. Point is there is ample skewed research that is entirely valid but built upon lies. There is a movement to reclassify many of the “disorders” (a relic of the broken foundation) I have into one big spectrum because there is ample genetic evidence that’s exactly what it is.

Case in point, my popcorn brain, look into it. As that might be the root stigma of your addiction. The stats are freaking nuts, incarnation, risk taking professions, addiction are all linked to neurodivergant behaviors which have a genetic link!
 
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Reach said:
Admitting you need help is the first step in recovering. I’ve been an addict for 15+ years. Clean for about six, but I’ve been struggling lately. I don’t want to fall back in to what I used to do, and so tonight I am going to reach out to my counselor to ask to meet again. It’s been some months since I’ve seen her, and it will hurt my pride to make that call, but if I don’t I may fall back into my old ways, and that will hurt far worse. I don’t want to see that happen, so I will make a call tonight. I would encourage you to do so also.

I recommend reaching out to America’s Keswick. They have a great program, and they’re only a couple hours away from you, in north New Jersey. One of my best friends went through their program and has been clean for more than 20 years now. Check it out, and consider it. https://addictionrecovery.org/colonyofmercy/

The cost is minimal, and I’ll pay the application fee if you want to go, if you give me your word you will go once you apply.
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If your thinking about reaching out, just fucken do it, and do it now. Do what you must
 
Reach said:
Addictions are like a disease that you choose to catch.
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Hard disagree, lots of things beyond folks control (genetics, adverse childhood experiences, internalized beliefs of others) contribute to addiction development imo.

Gabor Mate says something like, "the question isn't why the addiction, but rather why the pain". Facing that question has been the biggest turning point in my life
 
SeanRuel said:
Hard disagree, lots of things beyond folks control (genetics, adverse childhood experiences, internalized beliefs of others) contribute to addiction development imo.

Gabor Mate says something like, "the question isn't why the addiction, but rather why the pain". Facing that question has been the biggest turning point in my life
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I totally agree, but it’s also more complex.

Yes addiction can simply be chemical dependency. It’s been proven time and time again in studies.

‘Addictive’ personalities from life experiences is another point on the spectrum

As well as physical addictions being a entirely separate point

Then of course enter psychological addictions

Now you have the ingredients to make addiction soup.
 
There is a black Christian talk radio personality I like listening to called Jessie Lee Peterson. He holds views that many here would consider abhorrent and he sounds slightly retarded. I like his podcasts because well educated leftists generally fail to best him in conversation.

He is a good man and is adamant that overcoming one's problems involves forgiving ones parents.

Wondering if anyone struggling with addiction could attest to this.
 
treegongfu said:
There is a black Christian talk radio personality I like listening to called Jessie Lee Peterson. He holds views that many here would consider abhorrent and he sounds slightly retarded. I like his podcasts because well educated leftists generally fail to best him in conversation.

He is a good man and is adamant that overcoming one's problems involves forgiving ones parents.

Wondering if anyone struggling with addiction could attest to this.
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I have never heard of him, but I will be looking him up!

Forgiveness is an essential part of recovery of any sort. Sometimes it is one’s parents who need forgiving, sometimes it is a friend or several friends, it can be quite a long list of people who need to be forgiven, and oftentimes we must learn to forgive ourselves too.
 
He is funny in a good spirited way and he cares about all people. He runs a charity called BOND and he is "rebuilding America by rebuilding the man". He is black but argues for truth and the good of all not just for his own racial group which is exceedingly rare.

is that sufficient?
 
climbingmonkey24 said:
I see, so y’all think I just CHOOSE to be this way. It’s just a lack of effort or lack of discipline. Well GUESS WHAT? I’ve been in an addiction program for the last 4 years. I see a counselor every 1-2 weeks. I get up every morning and exercise before I go to work. So ya, I guess maybe I am fucking doing something to try and take back my life.

Except it ain’t working!!!!! It’s not as easy as you think. I’ve been fighting for 27 years for my life so don’t tell me I’m just going about it half ass.

I highly regret with every ounce of my being even making this thread.


Just another loser who doesn’t try hard I guess right? Bunch of fucking BULLSHIT
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Looking at things from a "half full" perspective, you've successfully eliminated a lot of things that do not produce the long term results you want.

I'm not implying nothing you've done or are currently doing is beneficial. But it's something you have yet to try that will produce the recovery breakthrough. I believe it's out there. You just have to find what it is.
 
Jessie Lee Peterson doesn't believe that Muslims should serve in any capacity in the US government and doesn't believe racism is real. He is a self-identified conservative Republican political commentator. Let's not derail this thread with political BS. And since when is being "anti-intellectual" something to be admired? If you're using the term intellectual as a synonym for liberal, you're using the word wrong. Back to the matter at hand please.
 
treegongfu said:
He is funny in a good spirited way and he cares about all people. He runs a charity called BOND and he is "rebuilding America by rebuilding the man". He is black but argues for truth and the good of all not just for his own racial group which is exceedingly rare.

is that sufficient?
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If those were all true then maybe. Obviously not the case, but keep being a sheep. Back to thread.
 
I urge @climbingmonkey24 not to hit and run in this thread. It's not enough to only call out for help. When help arrives, it becomes your responsibility to work with others toward a safe rescue. That involves an informational give and take: Does it hurt when I press there? Can you move your legs? Can you describe the pain? Are you really angry at someone and cannot forgive them? What--other than rage and self-recrimination--are you feeling when you move to intoxicate yourself? What are you feeling/thinking right now? Has anyone here voiced something that struck a cord with you?

You are brave enough to seek help when many people are not. But I now ask you to take some responsibility for getting better, and that means participating in this discussion more often and to the best of your ability. We now need your help.
 
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