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I've given myself a stern talking to,
that's for sure!!!
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You'd find as a contract climber the pressure is always on for speed. Many employers perhaps no longer climb and just care about the money, they don't really care what you do as long as the chit is on the ground fast. They may over book work and the days starts of with "once you've knocked this one down we have another job where a cranes arriving at noon so ya better get cracking" ...
... and in the day after day, year after year grind of this you get seasoned and fast but at a risk. The risk is like gambling, you may win in the early days but you if you dont walk away with your profits the losing times will come.
Some stats revealed recently showed a lot of chainsaw injuries came from under 3 year users and then a whole hoard over 15 year users. I don't have access to that info but sure cant forget it. The safety people were most intrigued with the older group, simply the odds coming back around (the losing streak).
To have cleared the area, taken spikes off, got a different saw, put a half hitch in the sling as well as a prussic all would have added time. Time that although is trivial in the grand scheme of things becomes a pressure cooker in your head, you need to control the pace, you are the man at highest risk and most difficult to replace.
I sincerely wish you get better fast and climb soon as I don't believe your passion is for anything else. I just also hope this incident changes your perspective of what you can achieve with the many people you influence, that was my goal. Sometimes tragedies bring benefits ... in my world doing it right is a healthier lifestyle than doing it fast.
But when you can do both then you are the MASTER.