I’m done

You know what? I’m tired. Sometimes you get so lost in the BS you don’t see what you have, the good things right in front of you.

I need to get real honest with myself. Maybe change up the routine. What’s the saying, doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result is the definition of ridiculous?

I am so embarrassed about some of the nonsense I’ve written in this thread over the last couple months. Saying things I don’t really mean, but maybe driven by emotion or being under the influence.

Time for a change.
Change by making small manageable new vhoices.
 
Exactly what Paul said. Manageable steps! First step I took that i could manage was watching YouTube videos on psych trauma and videos about emotional regulation.

This podcast episode was useful to me and where my newfound Mr. Rogers enthusiasm comes from.


The above podcast mentions the YouTube channel https://youtube.com/c/HealthyGamerGG. He's done tons of videos on a wide range of mental well being challenges. Lots to scroll thru and watch whatever jumps out as relevant.

People can and do transform their lives. For me, the low demand activity of listening to others talk was the nudge that I needed to start moving and stop feeling so stuck. Hope you find a manageable first step too!
 
Evo’s post reminded me of this verse. I keep it in the front of my mind.

But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. 2 Corinthians.
 
Evo’s post reminded me of this verse. I keep it in the front of my mind.

But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. 2 Corinthians.
That’s one of my favorites, though I still find myself forgetting to apply the lessons of that passage when I most need to. I have an accountability partner though who does not forget, and reminds me whenever I start to forget. One more reason I am so glad I have him in my life.
 
It’s always hard to apply spiritual principles for me too. It goes against the flesh. Other people or the Holy Spirit have to remind me. Good call on the accountability partner. I’ve not been able to have one that lasts. I’m jealous (in a good way) of that type of relationship. I’m happy that you have each other.
 
It’s always hard to apply spiritual principles for me too. It goes against the flesh. Other people or the Holy Spirit have to remind me. Good call on the accountability partner. I’ve not been able to have one that lasts. I’m jealous (in a good way) of that type of relationship. I’m happy that you have each other.
I’ve had this one for about four years now, and it’s amazed me that he’s stuck around so long too. I can be hard to tolerate sometimes, but he keeps right at it, though he’s not afraid to give me what for when I need it.

He’s older too, and widowed, which probably helps as well.
 
I think you’re right about the age. When in AA newly sober, I gravitated towards the older (65+) Christian men as sponsors and mentors. I figured they had much wisdom and more patience. It’s usually the way it goes. Some were still off da chain though ;)
 
I find it interesting how some people will say they don’t take someone too seriously when they’re under the influence, so does that mean you pick and choose when you want to take someone seriously or listen to them? Hmmm

What if someone expresses their emotions better when under the influence? Hmmmmm

Maybe you don’t want to listen to them at all? Hmmmm

Interesting indeed…
Hmmmmmm

Or is it?

Hmmmmm

The world may never know
 
You don’t like me? Well fuck off
237 Posts: That's how long folks here have stuck by you. I cannot count the number of times we have asked you to share details about what (precise) "influences" you are under and what might be causing you to persist with that when you've repeatedly proven that it does not work for you (or improve your life).

In post #198 of this thread, you described much of how you found yourself living and working around trees. That was very interesting, but it did nothing to address what we do not know about you, or to give us some insights that we can work from. I know that I am most likely to share my intimate details when I'm under the influence. Why not try that rather than telling your friends to flake off?
 

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